A Good Day to Ditch…

It’s a little rediculous that I slept in late and missed my class today considering the class started at 3:10. The nice thing is I stayed in and watched a really good movie. It was one of those movies where it might not have been as great as I believed it was but it just resonated with me. There were several moments that got me thinking. I’m not going to go into detail about the story or plot but I am going to mention a few moments and my thoughts on them.

At one point one of the characters in the film describes parts of life as being either out of focus or in focus. Things fade in and out of focus at different moments. While seemingly simple, this description was to me very powerful and poignant. I can think of times when my life seemed very clear, I knew where I was going and what I wanted. There were also times where things seemed distant and unknown. I think right now is one of those times. I’m worried about my own abilities. I’m uncertain about events, people I know, the past and the future. I’m waiting for things to snap back into focus.

There was another line in the movie that grabbed me. “You write short stories, you like living them too. But I’m kinda ready for the novel. Ya’ know?” It’s one of those corny lines but I liked it. There are those people that live their lives section by section, just try to move along to the next story. You wonder how long you’ll be part of their story and as a consequence you don’t allow them to stick around long in yours. There are plenty of people I want to keep in my story for a long time. I also find it interesting to think that there are major characters that I haven’t even met yet.

Finally this was one of the best monologues of the movie. “It’s not easy, being adored. You in particular, you have a tougher time than most, I get that. But I want you to give it a try. Think of it as an experiment. I promise, I will be very wonderful at adoring you, Annie. It’s an area where I think I’ve got a great deal of talent! You’re worth that adoration, Annie! You’re worth it. And the fact that you don’t believe it, has nothing to do with whether it’s true or not. It is true for me, and that is all that matters.” I think a lot of us have this problem. We measure our worth by what we feel about ourselves but we have a very limited point of view. Some of us can’t handle complements, we don’t buy em but we should be taking people at their word. I feel like a lot of people overlook great opportunities because they are always searching. It is either not good enough for them or they are not good enough for it.

Anyway that’s all. My rants tend to veer off course but hopefully you will be able to gather something from it.

A really good and comforting song

The Mistakes I’ve Made

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the mistakes I have made throughout my life. There is a fine plenty that I regret and I spend much of my time thinking about what I would do differently or how I could have changed things. Most of the time it’s nice to get lost in a dream of what might have been but it only makes reality that much worse. If I keep looking back without ever looking forward then I am doomed to make the same mistakes. I have a damn fine life to live so I’m going to live it. No more mistakes for as much as I can help it.

I’ve been having money problems lately so I went on Craigslist to see if I could find some odd jobs to make ends meet. Well I found a post by the Center for Sleep Research. They said they had developed a way to capture the images that we see when we dream. I thought it would be interesting to see and what the heck it paid well so they hooked me up to wires and I went to sleep. This is the video from that dream

What the Deal Is

So this post is going to be of the personal kind. An update of my life as of late. It’s been an exciting week including environmental debates, revelations about family, old friends, employment and much more. I apologize now for the random organization of thoughts but I write em as I think em. So I’ll just jump right into it then.

This campus is already starting to grow on me. I am getting to the point where I am recognizing people on campus. This is nice considering that just a month ago I knew no one and no one knew me from Adam. Campus is calm and serene. This is just the kind of place I was searching for when considering schools. Squirrels are in abundance, I saw one carrying an animal cookie and it just struck me as an extremely innocent and beautiful scene. The campus has it’s fair share of drama for sure, but it’s these in between times when I am riding my bike through campus that that have stirred within me the kind if zen peacefulness I have been looking for.

Speaking of biking, I saw the aftermath of a brutal bike accident on campus today. Apparently two folks met in a head on collision while bicycling. I can understand the cause of the accident, the sun was hanging low and blinding anyone heading west. I myself could not make out any of the individuals involved in the accident because of the blinding sun. The two individuals were wheeled out on stretchers with police, a fire engine and ambulance all on scene. Neither of the folks involved in the accident could speak so the police were asking people nearby if they saw what happened. The reason I mention this is I seriously feel for these two people. They were just going about their regular routine and now they’re in the hospital. I am sure few people expect to be seriously injured while riding a bike. It seems like such a normal and inconsequential activity. I didn’t know them but I can only imagine how much this sucks for them. I wish them a speedy recovery.

Back on track. This will be the more educational portion of my post, feel free to skip ahead. I was approached early last week by a student requesting my signature for a petition. The petition was to the City Council of the City of Davis. It was requesting the city to pass a ban on the use of plastic grocery bags. The poor girl caught me at a bad time, I was in a very argumentative mood. I gave her the usual lazy arguments, “Paper bags rip and are inconvenient for me when I ride my bike, I won’t always remember to bring cloth bags nor do I want to pay for them and finally I reuse my plastic bags.” All of these are true but even I know that if you really care about the environment none of these excuses amount to much. So I told her I could not sine a petition until I was accurately informed on the subject. So I told her I would go home and do my research and then I would find her the next day and either we would continue this debate or I would sign the petition. So true to my word I did my research and found her the next day and had this to tell her. I would not sign the petition because not only did it inconvenience me as a shopper, it also did more harm than good. Research shows that 41% of people are like me and reuse their plastic grocery bags as garbage bags. In Ireland there was a 400% increase in sales for plastic garbage bags and bin liners after passing a law similar to the plastic bag ban proposed in Davis. It seems odd to me that it has been relatively not too long since the environmental movement taught us that paper grocery bags were evil. They cost a lot of energy to make, millions of trees are cut down to make them and they release methane into the air which is a greenhouse gas. Well it seems environmentalists have forgotten their own lesson, a plastic bag ban would dramatically increase the use of paper bags which are potentially even more harmful to the environment. I mean really what was the plastic bags real crime? Sitting in a landfill where animals can’t mistakenly eat it, where it doesn’t emit any harmful greenhouse gasses, where it takes up relatively little space(>.5%) and doesn’t release chemicals into the water supply? Well her response was there is some floating garbage island in the middle of the pacific so I kindly I asked, “How much of that floating island has Davis contributed being as we are a decent distance from the coast?” She didn’t have a response, she just smiled and I thanked her for her time. I promise that is the end of my rant.

So I have been watching a lot of my favorite show “The West Wing”. Well imagine my surprise when I heard a name that I recognize quite well, Lockwood. Now I know that most people would not be surprised to hear their last name on television, especially if their last name is Smith or Jones but Lockwood is a fairly uncommon last name. So upon hearing the name Belva Lockwood mentioned on my favorite show I looked her up. She was one of the first female lawyers in the U.S.. She was the first female to be allowed to practice before the U.S. Supreme Court, and she was the first woman to appear on the official presidential ballot when she ran for President in 1884. After hearing about this I called my father to ask him about my family history and to see if I was indeed related to this amazing woman. He told me that there is a very good chance because almost all of the Lockwoods in the U.S. can trace their origins to the original three Lockwood Brothers that came here by boat early in our nation’s history. He also told me that I am likely to be related to the actor Gary Lockwood who starred in the classic film 2001: A Space Odyssey. This is very exciting to me, that I could be related to someone very important to this nation’s history. I really want to work on filling in my family tree on my father’s side. It may be an impossible task and I may never find out if I really am related to this amazing woman but until then my brother and I are hard at work making the Lockwood name one that will be rich with stories and history.

Actually I should mention the way my brother Cory is going about bringing honor to the Lockwood name. Cory and his band just released their second album called, “Conversation Piece”. I have been listening to it all week and it is amazing. The band really did an amazing job of blending together the incredible talents of all it’s members. You should give it a listen.

I was excited last week because I got to see many of my old friends from CRC. I went to my dear friend Christina Castro’s play, “Rocky Horror Picture Show” It was awesome. Super raunchy but a lot of fun. I got to see a lot of my friends including Albert Gomez, Christina Alvarado and Amanda Saelee. I can not wait to see the whole CRC crew next Wednesday.

OK finally to the most exciting news of the week, I GOT A JOB!!! It isn’t the most high paying job ever but it is doing what I love. I am the new Assistant to the Vice President of the Associated students of the University of California Davis. On top of helping organize the VP’s schedule I will be attending meetings, working on projects, helping with the interns and so much more. I wanted to get involved on campus and this is the perfect way to do it. It is a much needed foot in the door. As an added bonus a Senator recently told me that I need to run for Senate in the Winter Quarter. I will surely have much more to speak about on this subject in the future so stay tuned in.

Finally that leaves me with the last topic I wanted to speak about. The subject of love has been manifesting itself to me a lot lately. I’m not sure if the world is being particularly cruel to me or perhaps it’s just that I have been more sensitive to it recently but I’ve been seeing it everywhere, love. In fact in today’s issue of the California Aggie there were three separate articles which spoke about love. I have seen an abnormal amount of attractive couples holding hands and acting affectionately towards each other on campus. Maybe I am particularly sensitive to it lately but you can’t blame me, it’s been a long time since love handed me a victory. It has been over a year and a half since any girl has shown any interest in me and I found out recently that my ex of whom I was once a very close friend to is getting married. It isn’t that I still have feelings for her, we stopped talking a long time ago and I am very happy for her, but it’s just that I am going to an opera this Friday, alone, and I wish I had someone to go with. There a lot of very cool and exciting things going on in my life right now and I just wish I had someone special to share that with. But I have my friends and they have always been more than enough for me.

Maybe next time I will organize my post a bit better or I’ll cut it up into smaller posts and spread it some. anyway if you read all of this, thanks.

In closing I want to share a few links with you.

The inspiration for the title of this post, a song by this really cool Australian band.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zedudN3Ac8E

One of the websites I got most of my information about the plastic bag ban from. Sure they are probably a bit biased but they provide plenty of citations sources so you can’t argue with fact.

http://savetheplasticbag.com

A stream of the amazing music my brother has made.

http://www.purevolume.com/news/A-Lot-Like-Birds-Conversation-Piece-stream

Wikipedia pages about a bunch of really cool Lockwoods including Belva Lockwood

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lockwood

A Lot Like Birds, "Conversation Piece" stream

Seriously check them out. I am loving this new album.

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On Facebook

I guess this would be my “Goodbye Facebook” post if I was actually deleting my Facebook or promising never to visit it again but alas I am weak. Facebook has it’s uses and serves it’s purpose. It will still be my main social networking website. That’s where Tumblr fails to succeed, casting that social networking net and pulling in a big haul of stinky fishy friends. Then again maybe that’s good for Tumblr, it keeps the good friends closer and the not quite as good at a healthy distance away.

I have given Tumblr a test drive and I must say I like it. Facebook has too many distractors, mindless posts. Half the posts I see are from games. Other than that it’s often times just a sentence or two about something I don’t care too much about. Tumblr has what Facebook is missing, in depth discussion or updates. If I really care about you, I want to know more about how you are doing than just “rain sucked today”. Tumblr allows people to express themselves in a more creative way. Some posts are intellectual and serve as contributions to understanding. I will find more on Tumblr to stimulate thought and emotion.

So I say hello Tumblr.

For 23 years now, the world has known what it is to be truly blessed

http://greatest-thing-youll-ever-learn.tumblr.com/

This Day

For 23 years now, the world has known what it is to be truly blessed. It was on this day that my dear friend Jacob was born. Lives would be changed for decades to come, including my own, which would only begin a year after this momentous day. Jacob is the kindest, funniest and most genuine individual I know and today is not unique in reminding me of these facts because really every day is a reminder of such things. However, today is unique for being the day that God gifted us Jacob and I thank God for that.

It is with Jacob that I learned of life and death through our many games of War. We have solved mysteries together(Det. Mason), shed tears together(Braveheart), and there was even an occasion where we saved each others lives(spooning). I have grown more wise through our many philosophical discussions. Jacob’s council and advice has helped me through many of life’s most difficult of situations. And times spent with Jacob at Camp Meeting and elsewhere have even helped me grow closer with God. He may be my cousin, however, it is just by chance that we were born with shared blood. With Jacob I know what it is to have a truly unconditional friend.

Happy birthday Jacob. I hope you have a wonderful day, because it has been even better for us just for having known you.

TTB FOREVA BRA!!!

In Response to the Response to the Berkeley Bake Sale

There is an apparent issue with our higher education system. Well there are a lot of issues with it but I’ll stick to just this one. Our higher education system is not the “equal access” institution that was envisioned by the California Master Plan for Higher Education. The issue is due mostly to the fact that there is not equal opportunity in America. For some people it is easy to get into college. They grew up well off and had access to decent schools and tutors. For others they grew up in a low income family and did not have access to a quality education. I agree with this assessment of the problem, however I disagree with the solutions proposed by SB 185.


I understand that the problem arises from fewer opportunities for those people growing up in poverty. I also understand that minorities are more likely to grow up in poverty and have fewer opportunities than some other racial groups. This does not mean that a good solution is to give preferential treatment to minorities. It is possible for a minority student to grow up well off, go to private school, have tutors and test preps and get into a college of their choosing based on their own merit. It is also possible for a white or Asian student to have grown up in a slum, have poor access to education, poor role models and therefor not have the same opportunities. These situations are possible and yet under affirmative action in admission criteria the well off minority who had opportunities would receive preferential treatment over the other students. It isn’t accurate to say the problem is based on socioeconomic status and then the solution should be based on race because then you may be giving an advantage to individuals who don’t need it while neglecting some others who do. We could have admission criteria based partly on socioeconomic status but I believe that would be wrong as well.


These solutions are backwards, they don’t actually address the problems. They are trying to fix results caused by the problem while avoiding the main cause. What we are doing is saying, congratulations for defying the odds and actually rising out of poverty and receiving a decent education, NOW we will help. It does nothing to help even the odds and help them receive that quality education without having to scratch and claw for it themselves. Education is difficult enough without having to search for a foot in the door. The real solution needs to be fixing education, making it truly equal opportunity and equal access. I have my own opinions on how we do that but for now I’ll leave it at that.


http://www.dailycal.org/2011/09/26/uc-berkeley-bake-sale-controversy/

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